If I knew that you had any feelings for me whatsoever, that may change things. 
Obviously "THIS" is not making me happy.  I am sure it is not making you happy either.

I want to be the one who says "Get your ass up, we are heading to the beach (or elsewhere) and gonna have some fun dammit!".

...and I am going to expect you to listen.

I can be your best friend.

I already am one of them, you just do not see it and I hate that.  I want to wave a flag right in front of you and say "Here I am!!! Right here! Look no further".

Maybe I should have made my true intentions be known right from the start?

My suspicion is that it would not have mattered.

My purpose in your life is different than your purpose in mine.