Heartbreak

So there it is.
I have my answer(s).
After hours of messaging, texts and phone calls; bottom line: There is nothing there.

I am not sure when my imagination decided there was this insane and passionate love affair going on.  Or when the rest of me started to believe it.

Does it start with the heart or the head?

Regardless. It ends in heartbreak...

The cannot eat, cannot sleep, end up crying all day type.

So changes need to be made.

I need to reclaim my life and do what I NEED to do.  There are only two people in this world who keep me going and even though I already know this, I NEED them to know this...
They are my sole purpose in living.
I need to be successful for them.
I need to be happy for them.
I need to be the example they need in the world.
My focus needs to be on making sure they never, ever, EVER, end up a mess like their mother has....